WAJOOD - A DESPERATE POST

Okay, was really desperate to post something on V-Day! Two days late, I know..but then what the heck? This aint even a fresh post. Its almost 3 years old, written sometime in mid-2006. Never wanted to post this ever, but the reason I didn't want to post it doesn't hold any significance anymore...I think...

So here goes...

Kyun Dil Ke Is Nagar Mein
Hai Kabza Kisi Aur Ka?
Kyun Neend Hai Meri Khud Ki
Par Sapna Kisi Aur Ka?

Kyun Khud Ki Saji Mehfil Mein
Chaahun Saath Kisi Aur Ka?
Kyun Zindagi Ki Dhoop Mein
Chaahun Saaya Kisi Aur Ka?

Duaon Mein Bhi Meri
Kyun Hai Naam Kisi Aur Ka?
Kyun Aaine Mein Meri
Hai Aks Kisi Aur Ka?

Khud Pe Kaabu Na Raha
Hai Aalam Ab Kuch Aisa
Zindagi Khud Ki na Rahi
Wajood Ho Gaya Kisi Aur Ka !!

---- CLY (Still....Don't Ask Me Why? I Dunno)

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!!!

RANDOM RAMBLINGS

Finally blogging after some a few weeks rest. Had an accident on Jan 5. Was playing football with a few classmates. Scored a hat-trick to bring my team from 0-3 down to a lead of 4-3...to make it short, I was having real fun. And then it happened. A group was playing cricket on the same ground...the batsman went full-throttle with his shot and I was running in the direction of the shot (not knowing what was coming, of course)...and thwack!!!! The ball came hard, straight onto my left eye. Couldn't see a thing when I opened my eye after a painful struggle. A visit to the doc revealed that my retina was damaged and that there was a blood clot...but thankfully, the retina specialist that the doc guided me to told me that surgery wasn't required, and that I would recover after a month or two...or maybe four..but I would definitely be able to see again.

Man!!! I can't tell how how scared I was when I first couldn't see anything...its SHIT Scary!!!

My birthday was on the 9th, and I missed college. I thought this was gonna be the most boring birthday of my life, but buddies turned up home after college...it was lovely!! Had a blast!

Started going back to college yesterday. It aint easy, with right lights hitting you straight in the eye. But its better than staring at the celing :P

Was a lil upset today...its not a nice feeling when your friends have a split among themselves...for a reason involving you...then fight over you....and then put you in a position where you'd have to choose between them.

I wish for harmony again....

A distant memory hollers out to me and reminds me of a resolution I once made.......of not making new friends ever again...

I don't wanna choose!!!

Damn!!

RESOLUTIONS FOR 2009

Another year has passed since I last made "New Year's Resolutions". And watched them all being broken shamelessly :P. Spent New Year's Eve sleeping...exactly the way I wanted to spend it :P. I so HATE parties.

Okay, so my Resolutions for the year 2009, many of em(almost all of em :P) carried forward from the previous year. Pardon me for sounding like an accountant :p

1. I resolve to get rid of all my scalp hair in phases. I have no hopes now of salvaging my thinning mane. Better to look like Amrish Puri than to look like Rajat Sharma.
2. No more poems. Atleast for this year. I laugh at them whenever I read em now :P
3. People say I bob my head a lot while speaking. F**king shit, got to get rid of it!
4. I shall not give too much importance to people who don't deserve it. Tuhis one is not gonna be as difficult as it was the last year :d
5. I shall learn to dance. Brought-forward item. Told ya you'll be seeing this in my next Resolution List.:p
6. But this time I'm desperate, coz I'm the Best Man for my cousin's wedding on Jan 31st. Scary :O
7. Got to learn atleast one musical instrument. Didn't happen the last year. Damn!!
8. I've got to learn to say "NO" to people. Even if I have to be rude! I'm Serious!
9. I Resolve not to beg people to visit my blog.....

HELL!! NO WAY!!

There, I've cancelled a Resolution already :P

WISH YOU ALL A VERY HAPPY 2009!!!

ACID RAIN

Beads of sweat trickled down Sakpal's brows. He and three others carried the frame holding the body briskly through once-fertile barren fields. But the burden of a son's corpse can't be lightened by a few more shoulders.

None of them chanted. They probably realised the futility. Prayers hadn't gotten them rain since fifteen months now.

People here were dying either because of thirst, or by famine. Those who couldn't take the pain committed suicide.

The sweltering heat had claimed yet another victim, this time within Sakpal's family. Ganu was his only son. He was merely eight.

But Sakpal didn't cry. He only mumbled curses under his breath. He didn't fear DIVINE wrath anymore. He was certain HE wasn't listening.

Getting the wood and the shroud for the cremation was quite a struggle. Even while his son's body lay out in the open, ravaged by flies, he ran a few errands for the Sarpanch to raise money, when his pleas for a loan fell on deaf ears. But he didn't blame the Sarpanch. The Sarpanch atleast responded with a refusal.......his God, though, never said a thing.

Sakpal had dreams for his son. He had sent him to school, where kids of the 'better-offs' studied. Other poor farmers laughed at his "folly" and taunted him. But he wanted his son to have an education, and probably get a job in the city. Ganu would have taken them out of this village, to some place far away, where life would be better. Some place where God listened better. This village once had fields. Everyone produced something. And everyone was content. Not anymore. It hardly rained since the last year and a half. If at all it did rain, it would only be for an hour one day, and then nothing. The rain gods were teasing them it seemed.

His dream now lay motionless on his shoulder, dry, fly-infested, and slowly rotting. Ready to be consumed by a pyre. He felt uneasy. His head reeled. His loss was probably only now beginning to sink in.

They reached the crematorium grounds. As directed by the priest, the wood was arranged.

The body was laid on top of the heap.

Prayers were offered.

The corpse was walked around.

The pot was dropped.

The torch was lit.

But then it happened.

Betrayal......

Sakpal wailed out in anger.

The others joined him in angry protest.

Because, as if to add insult to injury and deny a dead child his due passage to a 'better life'....

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......IT RAINED!

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P.S. - This story won the 5th prize at "The Rain Drenched Contest" on The Writers' Lounge Blog. It featured in the top 6 posts, hence winning a "Super Six" badge :) Here it is.

AN AWARD

I've won an Award!! :)


Pratibha gave me this award. Must say it came as a pleasant surprise. Its great to win a new fan in just 2 readings :)

Thanks a tonne Gal!

Now...a lil bit about the award : (verbatim from Pratibha's blog...sorry for not being creative in that aspect :P)

This is the message for the award. It is to be passed to 8 other bloggers for the sentiments below. This award states that:

This blog invests and believes the PROXIMITY- nearness in space, time and relationships. These blogs are exceedingly charming. These kind bloggers aim to find and be friends. They are not interested in prizes or self-aggrandizement. Our hope is that when the ribbons of these prizes are cut, even more friendships are propagated. Please give more attention to these writers.

Here is my list of people to pass this award -

To Pratibha...not just returning the favour, but also for being a multi-talented blogger. You've got to see her Drawings blog.

To SSNAB...for being the first person to introduce me to blogging. :)
And not to forget her writing talent and her creativity in making things out of junk.

To Sudha...for being a loyal reader and following up on my blog without me having to bombard her with reminders :P, and for making time out of her hectic MBA schedule to blog.

To Kriti...for her dark brooding posts, which I simply love. (much like her swinging moods :P)

To Kushal...for poems in which he wonderfully plays with words, even though most of the times I hardly understand what they mean :P

To Marj...for posts that I can almost always relate to (especially those dealing with diets :P)

To Pranay...for being there to help whenever I need help with blogging tips. By the way, the banner that you see on this blog is courtesy Pranay :) Cheers Dude!

To Tara..for being my blogospehere sis :)

Actually, I'd like to give it to a lot more people, like Rashi, Nishi, Teena, Radhika, Alaena, Alisha, Shane, Pooja, etc. Dang! Wonder why most of em are gals. ;)

So people, go ahead and find your awardees :)